You live for culmination โ the launch, the performance, the conversation had at full volume with the lights on. Visibility doesn't drain you; it completes the circuit. Things you touch want to be shown, and feelings you have want to be said.
The cost is the addiction to peaks. Between culminations you can feel weirdly unemployed, and the need for full illumination can turn private matters public and quiet progress invisible to your own eyes.
The full moon lasts one night; the cycle is the actual career. The practice is trusting the dimmer phases โ the tending and releasing that make the bright night possible. The peak isn't who you are. It's just when everyone else finds out.