Your villain form transforms loudly. Every glow-up is announced, every closure is posted, every lesson learned arrives with a caption. You have forgiven people specifically so it could be witnessed. Growth, for you, is a performance genre.
The dark loop: you re-litigate your own past like a docuseries — old decisions get exhumed, re-tried, and re-sentenced at 1 a.m. You've apologized for who you were in 2016 to people who genuinely do not remember 2016.
But underneath the theater, you actually DO the work — most people never reopen the case at all. The upright Judgment rises once, for real, without checking who's watching. Next revelation: keep it private for a week. See if it still counts. (It does.)